In a worse shade of red. A lot heavier. No matter how I twist and turn things this can't be good news. I had a good cry in the shower. Put on some make-up and let D take me out to dinner. Half way through the main course in a conversation about Christmas my mascara started running down my face. D squeezed my hand, paid the bill, and took me home. Fell asleep on the couch before 8. Woke up in bed at 5.
Tomorrows test will probably just confirm my fear. The acrobat is not around anymore.
I'm so sorry, and I still hope you're wrong and that the test shows the acrobat is still clinging on.
ReplyDeleteI didn't want to post before, in case you followed the link to my blog and saw that the spotting didn't turn out well for me, but I've been following your posts and hoping that your spotting meant nothing - according to my favourite nurse at my clinic and various sources I've read on the internet, spotting and even bleeding is very common after IVF and doesn't necessarily mean anything one way or the other.
I'm still keeping everything crossed for you, sending you big (((hugs))) and hoping that tomorrow's news is better than you're expecting.
*hugs* I'm sorry. I hope the test comes back and everything is ok.
ReplyDeleteYes, my fingers are crossed for you still, I will
ReplyDeletehope for you and the acrobat all day.
The quiet crying in restaurants is common for me
too. For some reason I can keep it together at
work and at home, but once I sit down at a
nice restaurant, the waterworks begin!
I'm still hoping, hoping for you and Acrobat. If the news is not what you want, I'm so sorry. :( {{{hugs}}}
ReplyDelete(((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteI'm still hoping for some good news for you.
Thinking of you and still holding on to hope.
ReplyDeleteI'm still crossing everything for you!
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Big, warm, supportive hugs, my dear. We are here for you.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry *hug*
ReplyDeleteI hope it turns out to be different news.
I'm so sorry. I'm still hoping it turns out to not be AF. I've got you in my thoughts and prayers. Take care.
ReplyDeleteOh honey I'm sending you lots of hugs!!! And your still in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteOh hun, I'm soooo sorry! =(((
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I'm so, so sorry. Still hoping and praying for you.
ReplyDelete((HUGE HUGS))
Ohh, I'm so very sorry. You are in my thoughts...
ReplyDeleteI still think the acrobat is around, just taking an intermission maybe? I am so wishing to hear good news tomorrow. Sending you big fat yummy hugs from Cairo girl. xoxoxoxoxoxo
ReplyDeletegrr... you're in my thoughts!
ReplyDeleteKeeping all possible digits crossed for your little Acrobat still hanging in there. Warm thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI am so, so sorry. I am sending you my thoughts and a cyber hug from sunny Australia.
ReplyDeleteTake care of yourself.