Friday, 30 October 2009
Wednesday, 28 October 2009
On transfer day when Nurse Inga was telling us about the dos and don'ts she told me: "You won't have any symptoms of pregnancy before your HPT so don't go around trying to feel if anything is different". I told her I was already feeling knocked up because of the progesterone induced boob soreness and that I'd try to not drive myself crazy. And I'm not. Really. But I can't help but noticing things that are out of the ordinary, right? I'll share if you promise not to tell Nurse Inga...
Tuesday, 27 October 2009
Last night we flew back to England. Not just me and D, we had a little extra something on board.
Saturday, 24 October 2009
I have my fingers crossed.
Friday, 23 October 2009
A few months ago I had a major melt down. I found out that four of my coworkers at my first agency job were expecting their first child. All of them successful women and men ranging from their mid-thirties to mid-forties. I wasn't upset because I didn't think they deserve the happiness of having a family. It was more that I thought they were happy without children. In the back of my mind I had used them as positive role models in case I was never able to have a child of my own. And now I was suddenly robbed of said role models. Of course I was happy for them but the selfish little girl that lives in my chest was bawling her eyes out, screaming "it's not fair!".
I had a feeling.....only because I just went through it myself. (They were able to extract 6 eggs from me — 3 of which fertilized.)
We had been seeing a specialist and trying different things for 8 months. Each time the treatment didn't work so he continued to get more aggressive. That led us to our first round of IVF last December. (A week before the procedure, I landed in the ER with an asthma attack. Not good.) The odds were completely against us... a 20% chance. And it actually worked. The Dr. was even surprised. Little Miss V is a result of that IVF.
I COMPLETELY understand how difficult this is. Physically and mentally exhausting. I don't know how I got through the shots!! All so fresh in my mind.
Hang in there. Most of all, relax and stay positive. Best of luck to you!!!
Big hug, T
Wednesday, 21 October 2009
Tuesday, 20 October 2009
Monday, 19 October 2009
Friday, 16 October 2009
Monday, 12 October 2009
Friday, 9 October 2009
Thank you Illinare for the Honest Scrap Award :-)
Rules: Reveal 10 things not previously known about you, and pass along the award to others.
Sorry about the random things listed, my head is still feeling "fuzzy".
1. I never wanted to get married and never dreamt of a white wedding.
2. I married my husband six months after we started dating. And then again six months later. Both times on the beach.
3. I landed my dream job right out of college but had to give it up for my husbands Navy career :-(
4. I run a graphic design business that's been put on hold since the move to Europe.
5. I hate the expressions "you think too much" and "maybe it's not meant to be".
6. When I get a compliment I feel like I cheated somehow and will be found out at any given moment.
7. I love my husband to pieces and would do anything for him. Squeeze pimples on his back? No problem!
8. I've never been broken up with. When/if I feel the "break up vibe" I hit the road.
9. I've broken up with a best friend. It hurt more than some romantic break-ups and I have no contact with her today.
10. I'm really good at getting lost. Even with Tom-Tom in the car giving me directions.
I would like to share this with:
And thank you WannabeMommy for the Kreativ Blogger Award
Here are the rules that accompany this esteemed honor:
1. Thank the person who nominated you for this award - check
2. Copy the logo and place it on your blog. - check
3. Link to the person who nominated you for this award. - check
4. Name 7 things about yourself that people may not know.
5. Nominate 7 Kreativ Bloggers.
6. Post links to the 7 blogs you nominate.
7. Leave a comment on each of the blogs letting them know they’ve been nominated.
And here's another seven things you don't yet (but are about to) know about me:
1. My cat and dog both have passports. They're bona fide globetrotters.
2. I'm multilingual. Swedish and english really well (unless I'm really tired or drunk), french like a five year old and spanish like a two year old. My pets understands both english and swedish. My Hubster knows only swedish dirty words.
3. I'd move back to Hawai'i in a heartbeat if I could convince D and the rest of our families to move with us.
4. When we got our Dogster we were told he was a Bull Mastiff. He's not. Unless he's part chihuahua. Mastihuahua.
5. Our cat adopted us. She moved over from our neighbors when they separated. Brought her little bags and said "I'm moving in folks".
6. I went to Cannes for the film festival in 1994 and got kidnapped by a crazy french couple but managed to escape by outsmarting them. They were dumb. And evil.
7. I was born with a "fire mark" on my left shoulder. It's no longer bright red but still a little bumpy.
I'd like to pass on this award to:
I'm a light weight when it comes to drugs. Probably because I grew up in a socialistic country with public, free healthcare that believes that the remedy "go home and sleep it off" works with most ailments. I had never really taken anything stronger than baby aspirin before I came to the U.S. in my mid twenties. Well, aside from antibiotics and when I had surgery, but you know, for headaches and colds and such. The first time I caught a cold in Hawaii my college room mates told me to take some NightQuil. So I did, went to bed and slept for 24 hours and woke up with a terrible hang-over. My room mates were terrified! After that episode I went back to "sleeping things off" naturally whenever I caught a cold. Until a few years ago when I started getting severe cramps with the Bloody Monster, I then popped 800mg Motrin like candy and still couldn't get out of bed. The culprit turned out to be a 1.5 cm polyp blocking my cervix and has since been removed and my periods are now as good as pain free. So thankfully this past year I've been back to my old habits of not taking any painkillers, cold medicins or what have you. But you can't join the circus au naturel, now can you?
Thursday, 8 October 2009
Wednesday, 7 October 2009
I think the Bloody Monster must have read my post yesterday because as soon as I had finished writing she arrived with a bang. And for the first time in a very long time I was absolutely thrilled to see her. Her arrival means we're finally joining the circus! I threw myself on the phone and called my REs office in Sweden to tell them the great news. "Nurse Inga" chuckled when she heard my excitement and quickly proceeded to give me the schedule of events. - I'm to start taking 225 mg of Gonal-F every night tonight. Come in for ultrasound and blood work on the 12th (good news, since my non-refundable ticket to Sweden is on the 11th - phew!) and start adding a daily shot of Orgalutran that evening. Come in for a second ultrasound on the 16th and be ready for egg retrieval and sperm aspiration on the 19th (more good news since Ds non-refundable ticket is on the 17th - double phew!). Embryo transfer scheduled for the 23rd and then we're allowed to fly back to England the 25th (which is when, you guessed it, our non-refundable tickets are for - PHEW!).
Tuesday, 6 October 2009
Monday, 5 October 2009
Sunday, 4 October 2009
1. You Can Only Use One Word!
2. Pass this along to 6 of your favorite bloggers
3. Alert them that you have given them this award!
4. Have Fun!
The Fun Part
1. Where is your cell phone?
Charging (seems like I charge it every other day. I know, one word, but if I write in parenthesis it doesn't count right?)
2. Your hair?
Blond (with one or two stray grey)
3. Your mother?
Wonderful (I got the best Mamma in the world)
4. Your father?
Protective (My husband is the only boyfriend he ever liked and trust me, he let the ones he didn't like know it.)
5. Your favorite food?
Sushi (and cheese, not together though)
6. Your dream last night?
Coma (last night got later and wetter than expected)
7. Your favorite drink?
Cabernet (partly to blame for last nights dreamless state of coma)
8. Your dream/goal?
Published (working on a childrens book)
9. What room are you in?
Office (future baby room...)
10. Your hobby?
Reading (watching movies, blogging, playing the piano, singing, drawing, painting, dog whispering)
11. Your fear?
Sickness (and fake boobs)
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years?
Mother (of hopefully at least one 6 year old)
13. Where were you last night?
Norwich (had sushi and went bar hopping)
14. Something that you aren’t?
Angry (not very often)
Nah (not a big fan, I'll take some cheese though)
16. Wish list item?
Mini (Cooper S)
17. Where did you grow up?
Sweden (south west)
18. Last thing you did?
Walked (the Dogster)
19. What are you wearing?
Fleece pants (yes, the Dr. Seuss ones, and yes they need washed)
20. Your TV?
21. Your pets?
Meow-girl and Pooper (well, that's two of their many nicknames)
23. Your life?
24. Your mood?
25. Missing someone?
Always (especially that someone that is yet to be conceived)
27. Something you’re not wearing?
28. Your favorite store?
TJ Maxx (or TK Maxx like they call it here)
29. Your favorite color?
30. When was the last time you laughed?
31. Last time you cried?
32. Your best friend?
33. One place that I go to over and over?
Bathroom (although not as often as I used to)
34. One person who emails me regularly?
35. Favorite place to eat?
Shikis (in Nowich, England, Pio-Pio in Halmstad, Sweden, Lanna Thai in Mililani, HI and Ivar's in Mukilteo, WA)
And here are the six blogs I'd like to award: