Sunday, 1 November 2009

Grasping for straws

You ladies are wonderful. Reading your comments on my last post made me feel all warm inside. Thank you for helping me stay positive through these weeks of violent roller coaster rides between hope and despair. 

I'm still spotting. Possibly getting a little heavier. Tomorrow The Bloody Monster would rear her ugly head if this was a regular cycle for me... But it's not and Test Day is still four days away. 

I'm pretty sure it's not implantation bleeding. Or could it still be? Could it be my body's way of adjusting to a little acrobat settling and burrowing in snugly? Could it be that I'm shedding the exess lining that was built up by the extra hormones? Could it be the progesterone suppositories irritating the area and causing the spotting? Could it be that IVF patients generally spot?

Or could it simply be that this little one didn't stick?

I'm normally not the praying kind but I'm grasping for straws here. 

Dear Mr Circus Director, 
Please could you find it in your great big heart to give us the gift of life. 
Would you please help us create, nurture and add a child to our family. 
I'm down on my knees, begging you, please.

Circus Princess


  1. Do you normally spot so early before a period? I guess all bets are off on "normal" with all of those hormones. It certainly could be implantation spotting. Hang in there. Hugs and positive thoughts!

  2. Could it be twins and double implantation? That is what I am hoping for you... hugs and prayers,

  3. Normally I spot a couple of days before my period starts :(
    And I only had one embryo transferred so twins are highly unlikely. I'm positive one minute and crying the next, thank you for handing me more straws to grasp for :)

  4. Try to keep your chin up. It's truly such a crazy roller coaster ride. Hoping the days fly by and the first beta confirms the acrobat has joined the circus for good!!

  5. I'm praying for you chickie!! I'm also hoping that it is what the pp said about it being twins and its double the implantation bleeding. Good Luck sweetie!!
    Love & Hugs
    Mrs. Farmer

  6. I'm not the praying kind either but I'm keeping you in my thoughts and sending you inplantation bleeding / BFP vibes.

  7. I recommend you distract yourself by watching a comedy, laugh, and laugh.

    My $0.02.

  8. Crossing everything for you. I agree that this really is a roller coaster ride--one you can't get off when you want to. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

  9. It could still be implantation bleeding honey.
    It could be a whole list of things!

    Snuggle down deep Little Acrobat.

    Love and Hugs.

  10. Sweets, it aint over until the fat lady sings. Try to busy yourself with some other stuff if you can (gosh, I know how hard this waiting time is!) - I am thinking of you and hoping, hoping, hoping!!

  11. Stick it out girl. It really could be implantation bleeding. I am praying, cause I am the type, believe it or not, that this is what it is. Stay hopefuly and maybe this is the little circus kids grand entrance into the big top.... I so much hope it is! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

  12. 3 out of my 4 IVFs I bleed red prior to beta. One of those times I was pg. So it really could go either way... I don't want to give false hope and at the same time I don't want you to lose all hope because this could mean either. I hope it's beautiful news!


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