Thursday, 11 March 2010

There it was

a speck of blood in my white panties. In combination with this morning's small drop in temperature and another lonely single line on the hpt, I knew what it meant. It's over.
Diver Dude heard my loud sniffle and came in to see what was wrong and found me crying like a baby hunched over on the toilet seat. He got down on his knees and held me while stroking my hair. Told me he loved me and that he was sorry.
As I'm searching for words to describe how I feel, every single one I can think of consist of four letters so I better not write anything else right now.

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  1. I'm so sorry. I know what you are feeling all to well. And 4 letter words are what come to my mind too. I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better. I am thinking of you though.

    Please take care of yourself.

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  2. I am sending you hugs and love and warmth.
    I know the pain is heavy and overwhelming, I am sorry.

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  3. So sorry, really just So sorry! use those 4 letter words
    whenever and wherever you like!

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  4. AAARRRRGGGGHHH!!!! Sometimes the 4 letter words (or longer) are the best.

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  5. Oh, I'm so, so sorry. It's just not fair. :( {{{{HUGS}}}}}}

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  6. I'm so, so sorry. It's so unfair. Use all the four letter words you want. Sometimes they're the only ones that fit.

    ((HUGS))

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  7. I'm so very sorry :( *hug* *hug* *hug*

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  8. I'm very very sorry honey. Sending you lots and lots of (((hugs)))

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  9. oh no. so so sorry
    I hate that, crying on the toilet, bleeding and then the comforting feels so horribly awkward.
    I'll make some tea now and get the chocolate out, ok?
    I wish this wasn't happening...

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  10. So so sorry. There are no words for that pain. Just hugs.

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  11. I am so so sorry my friend. There are just no words. Today another friend from a local board also got a BFN with DE...it's just so so hard. Be kind to yourself, I'm thinking of you. Fran

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  12. Call me if you need me, sweetie! Is it really a lost cause?
    Kramar i massor - jag finns här om du behöver mig! Jobbar hemifrån imorgon.

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  13. I'ma say it for you.

    Fuck.

    I'm so sorry.

    Sending you all my love,
    xxxx

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  14. Damn. I am so sorry. Sending you *hugs*

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  15. I'm so, so sorry. For what it's worth, four-letter words are always appropriate, now more than ever.

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  16. Oh girl, this shit sucks man, just plain sucks it. Take care of yourself and know I am thinking of you and sending you crazy hugs from Cairo. xoxoxoxo

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  17. I'm so sorry. I'm thinking a few choice four-letter words myself - but the only one I want to send you is (((hugs))) x

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  18. I've been lurking on your blog for a little while and just wanted to tell you I'm so sorry.

    xoxoxo

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  19. So sorry - BFN's are awful.

    :(

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  20. Oh crap. I have been awol for awhile and have just checked your news. I am so, so, sorry - I am sending your big hugs.

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  21. Hi, I'm here from Lost and Found. I'm so sorry that you got one stinkin' line and blood and no positive. Sending you a big hug. Say all the four letter words you need to - it's hard to find others in this sorrow.

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  22. First, I apologize for getting so far behind on your blog. I switched laptops and have been slowly getting all my rss feeds set back up. I am sooooo sorry to read that this attempt didn't pan out. Very sad for you! =(

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