Friday 29 April 2011

Stop and smell the roses

This week we've gotten news that Diver Dude's heart is broken. It needs fixing. With lots of medication, electric shocks and hope.
He's been diagnosed with atrial fibrillation and dilated cardiomyopathy after having felt run down for several months. Basically his heart is beating irregularly and his left ventricle is dilated and not contracting properly.
It scares the living crap out of me.
I lay awake last night after the four o'clock feed listening to my two boys breathe next to me wondering how I could continue breathing if one of them weren't there.
Every moment together is precious.
Holding hands while brushing our teeth.
Laughing together when Bubba reaches for his toes.
Sharing a knowing look when hearing something we don't agree with.
We need to stop and smell the roses. And hope we have many, many moments left together.

25 comments:

  1. My goodness. So sorry to hear that scary news. Hoping some good news follows quickly and Diver Dude's heart responds well to the therapies in store.

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  2. O my dear Circus Princess, how impossible... I was thinking that for you the endless hospital visits would be over and you could 'just enjoy' being a mother. And then, life twists again. Wishing you hope for (against) all things scary.
    hugs.

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  3. So sorry to hear about this. Hoping they are able to control his a-fib (we have a very good friend who has had, from a very young age, a-fib and has to take precautions (limit alcohol) but does very well.) Don't know how the cardiomyopathy plays into this, but hoping they can get him better.

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  4. I am so sorry to hear this news! My thoughts will be with you and DD over the next few moths! DD will be just fine!

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  5. If it's not one thing, it's another. I'm glad you were able to get a good diagnosis and hope you get a good plan in place. Will be thinking of all of you.

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  6. I am sorry to hear this news, too! My thoughts and prayers are with you and DD. May his "fixing" be quick and successful!

    Hugs, my dear. What a scary thing to have happen to hour DD, especially now. Sending love and hugs your way...

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  7. I hope everything goes well for him. That's very scary :( *hug*

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  8. I am so sorry. I will be thinking of you guys, lots. ((hugs))

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  9. I'm really glad they figured this out prior to something more serious like a stroke. There are quite a few people with AFIb, and some very good medications. I don't know about the ventricle issue, but I'm so thankful you found it now. Good luck.

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  10. Oh, my goodness! What is the plan?? That is sooooo scary. I am sending you best wishes for a good plan and a long, long happy time together!

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  11. Oh how incredibly scary! I'm so very sorry! My thoughts are with you and Diver Dude as his heart gets fixed.

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  12. i'm so sorry but hopefully now that you know about you can take as much control of the situation as possible.

    you're right, we must stop and smell the roses, live every day of life to the full because tomorrow [unfortunately] is not promised to anyone.

    sending big hugs

    xxxxx

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  13. Keep us posted lovely lady, my thought are with you and your amazing family!! Hope it gets better soon.

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  14. Oh goodness. Thinking about you both and hoping they fix everything!

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  15. So shocked to hear this. I will be thinking of you all - let's hope the treatment gets him on the road to recovery soon. xx

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  16. I am so sorry to hear this news about diver dude. I'll be thinking of you all and hoping you get good news on his health soon. xo

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  17. Oj! Tråkigt men du ska se att det blir bra. Undrar du något ang det så kan du maila mig, jag jobbar ju med hjärta och vi gör elkonverteringar dagligen på jobbet.
    Hoppas han kryar på sig snabbt!
    Kram

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  18. hey princess. i know you have lots of hope and i know you believe in miracles after all you have been through. so keep up your hope and let the shocks and medicine do their job and hopefully you will end up with a better-feeling energetic diver dude who can fully enjoy his young son. You are in my prayers!

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  19. Oh goodness, I hope all is ok and you get a clean bill of health very soon. Thinking of you!

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  20. Oh my God! I am hoping Diver Dude will recover superbly.

    And I hope you have long wonderful years of togetherness written for your family. Sending so many thoughts....

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  21. Thinking of you guys. Hope DD is on the mend soon!

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  22. WTF is wrong w/ the Circus Director sending you more crap to worry about! I hope DD will be fixed soon! Sending you all my love and support!

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  23. oh my sweet friend, I am so sorry. I am sending lots of prayers up for Diver Dude and thinking of you......I am hoping that the meds, the treatments etc will get him back to normal soon.

    I am so sorry I didn't know before now. OMG.
    *HUGS*

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  24. I just saw this...I'm so sorry to hear this! I'm thinking of you, and hope the medications and treatments are helping. - Tkeys

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